Yeah i'm happy with my next week schedule.
Basically hv to work for two days nia. haha!

How come this hotel so super busy? Non-stop at all since i came back from m'sia. But it's good for me duh..I think. After Makoto left, other than Lumxiujie, my next motivation to work is to working with my afom Gobi. He is enough kind sia! slowly used to work wiz him everyday =) yeah I like him.

I'm wondering ..if l like this place or not.

super busy week.
yeah finally I tasted to upsell non-stop as a receptionist. haha..
I wanna break Jerrick's record. Can do..? haha =)
Lumxiujie is my only motivation to work, nothing else.

Makoto, my 1st brother in PanPac,
farewell for him yesterday n he is going to join MBS soon..haizz...
Can't see d sadness from my face, but actually I really sad dat he leave.
我早在以前就习惯了这样的场面，就算很伤心，也不会说出口。

Anyway, feel good to "pia" with lumxiujie juz now! busy non-stop! haha!
Goodluck Makoto San~!

I'm not good.

Ppls kept asking about how's ahgong now...
wuwuwuwu...

Yap Siew Kuan, cannot cry!!

I hv to be tough..I knoe.

Thanks frens for all ur concerns=)
sorry that I did not cry in front of u all..i'm 硬撑,
I just dun want to let u all worry about me.
But trust me, 我没有崩溃的哭，是因为我对阿公，没有不孝，没有愧疚。
My only regret is not to take him back to China.

My tears dropping..becox of i'm missing him.

原来。。只要她不喜欢你，就是不喜欢你。。
不管你之前对她多好。。

我可不可以有自己的妈妈。。？那她就可以帮我，保护我。。？

我們可不可以不勇敢
當傷太重　心太酸　無力承擔
就算現在女人很流行釋然
好像什麼困境　都知道該怎麼辦

　　我們可不可以不勇敢
　　當愛太累　夢太亂　沒有答案
　　難道不能坦白的放聲哭喊
　　要從心底拿走一個人　很痛　很難

我会尽量不哭。。
等到眼泪被哭干了，我就会更勇敢的站起来。

之前买了格子衣给阿公，还跟他约定说要全家人一起在今晚拜天公穿的。。可是都不行了。。
Erm。。不知道他还习惯吗。。？他会孤单吗。。？或是他正在与阿妈吵架呢？希望是吧!
那天赶回来看到他。。拼命的叫他，可是他都不回应我了，也都不看我了。。我哭得很凶，因为很不甘心，一向来健健康康的阿公，就这样走了。。但我想。。他尽力了。

我也尽力了，累了。

阿公，一路好走。

really hate myself.
SAD SAD.....haha..

谢谢你们懂我。 =）

Same as last time, i used to bought many many chocolates for frens dat I working with on Valentine's day.. This time i gave them late cox I was so super busy through out the whole day at reception. Imagined, I kana bully like last time how I bullied staff in MM. But i never ask ppl to mod reg card for me right...?anyway I know I'm "super junior" now, but I dun hv to everytime "sorry sorry~" right...haha...I wanna make complain tomorow :P

Thanks Rene for d flower. Haha. No surprise for me cox when concierge called me, 1st person that appeared in my mind was Ms Chng! haha.. I felt touching with d msg that she wrote, but I din have time to cry. haha! Busy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5 more days to go home..huhu~!

Ah gong faster wake up, give me AngPao!!!!!! P/s..can I bite him ..? so dat he will wake up when he feel pain right..?haha

我很好那么你呢
想起的我是怎样的
当初哭着分不开
现在都能用微笑释怀 轻轻问候着
我很好那么你呢 离开我要比从前快乐
眼泪是记得 而不哭了是懂得
我们都会幸福的

Happy CNY everyone^^

&..happy valentine's too!

Scared to emo alone at home so i decided to stay over night at irene's place. dun wanna go home. haha!

其實愛對了人 情人節每天都過.

分手快樂 alicia , 晚安 =)

CNY tomorow, but why I do not hv CNY feeling de..?erm..
It's okie, will go for reunion dinner with Rene & rene's family later.. =)

在还没离开家之前，我还对阿公说要先把我的红包准备好，等我晚点回来才亲自把它交给我，阿公还说好啊！可是他都睡了十几天了，还不醒来，要怎么包红包给我呢？我想。。他应该是生气我离开他，现在闹别扭，刻意要我担心他吧。。？

每次我离开家或是去上班，他都会一直在门口向我挥手说拜拜，一直不停的挥着，直到车子的望后镜看不见他为此，阿嘛以前也是如此。我超爱摸摸阿公的头，然后他会像小孩一样的笑着。Jessy 应该很想念着这一幕吧？哈！

阿公快醒来吧，过年不能欠钱，所以你要赶快起来包红包给我们哦！快起来吧，我很久没有看到你笑了。。乖，快醒来吧！

我在搞笑 藉著熱鬧 掩蓋著心跳
邊哭邊笑 偏要說著一個人真好
當人群散了 突然覺得我可以死掉 我受不了

习惯了就好。

有时候放弃了，是因为。。爱，不应该是单数的。

喜欢在巴士上，定定地凝视着同一个人，
在思考着。。那个人，和我一样听着音乐，但，
他也会和我一样，因播放着的歌曲而想起某人吗。。？

和我一样孤单的人很多，常好奇他们孤单的心里，有过多少悲哀。

So coincidentally saw jerrick & jia jia @ bugis street juz now! Huhu..I'm very happy although we only had a very short chat..haha! 新加坡是太小了ba!！

Yeah I got "上上签" juz now =)
It says that "Sickness will be cured by skilled doctor. Luck is around & it's the right time as one gains approval and will have the means!" huh~!

Erm..ahgong..pls get well very soon ya^^

很开心刚接到你的电话，
我们刚像是回到中学时，很开心的胡闹着。。
我想我们都累了，所以现在释怀了。
你之前常诉说着我对朋友很好，所以我们现在的选择是对的吧？
因为我们现在是朋友了，所以，
我会对你很好，不再向你哭闹了。
你会看到每天都嘻嘻哈哈的我，
就像以前上学那样，让你称呼Kuan姐的我。

如果有天你的心属于另一个她了，我会伤心，
但没关系，你开心就好，只要她能让你幸福，那就好了。

一个人，心虽是灰色的，
但我还是选择孤单的一个人， 至少，
我不会再连累或伤害任何人了。

Yeah, I've learned a lots of things today =)

The most special one is when Lye communicated with his guest who can't speak well in english...Normally when we had communication breakdown with guest, we always drew out or pointed here n there to tried to make guest understand. But u know wat, Lye went to Google translate, typed wat ever dat he want to say to the guest, translate from english to German then let the guest read! "wow so clever leh!" I was thinking, eh how come i never know ar, oh maybe I'm so stupid ba...! haha..

But actually i'm not da only stupid right..? Irene, Jerrick, JianHao & da whole MM also dumm lo..hahah...

Last minute oral tested by my AFOM today about hotel P&P & product knowledge. haha! She was so impressed that I scored 100% sia! hahha... Excuse me, I'm FRESH ENTRY k...hehe =)


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I'm in da very good mood today..haha! dunno why=) But think of it, later on I hav to work from 1pm till 11pm, got a bit sien ady..ha! Think it's okay, cox I'll hv 3 days holidays tomorow onwards & I'll work with my lovely lumXiuJie later! Yeah!

JiaYou YapSiewKuan =)

Hate loneliness..
Hate to be alone..

I was so super blur today :P

Hv met a lotz of new frens this few days. I'm always thinking, are they going to be my another click gang or frens again..? Anyway, i'm now still look presentable in front of them,cox I haven explode my lame yet. haha! When ppl said my 气质很好，I almost vomit liao. hahaha!

Sekali they dun like my style. haha!

Yeah went to MM juz now to pass something to Ms Chng.

I'm very very happy to met my ate Joyce, Iffah & 色狼Thomas there! hahah...I was so tired ady but I still managed to making fun there, kept exploding my lame with them..ha! Feel a little bit proud of myself duh.. haha~!

Stupid thomas was trying to cheat me said Ibrahim went off ady n asking me to go into da back office, but actually Ibrahim was at the back office! haha! Luckily my lovely ate save me duh, if not sure i will kena brain wash by Ibrahim one. ha!

before went to MM, was sitting at shopping mall and anyhow draw something on da CNY's cards that I juz brought.But I like my drawing. haha..zi lian!

slacking for d last hour..haha!
later will go buy CNY's card for my lovely Indo's trainees..
Sorry for delay ya Ms Chng..haha..
Yeah will go MM later =)

erm, doctor said will going to do another operation for ahgong today..
JiaYou my dear ah gong..!!!!
waiting for goodnews from home.

jiayou yapsiewkuan!

如果我的依赖有让你们感觉累，请诚实的告诉我，
我会一个人的学习坚强。晚安。
=）

我不懂自己。哈哈！
Tired.

super slack today...
blogging while waiting for d next induction..haha!
another half an hour to go..huh~

伤心的事情不停的发生。。
心里陷入进退的挣扎，很难过，很累。
明白这只是过渡期，我一定会熬过的。

以前习惯了以哭泣来释放一切，
现在则习惯了压抑哭泣，不哭了。

我一直相信，阿公一定会醒过来的。
而我也相信，他会听到我昨晚所说的一切。

对不起，我不向你们多说，是因为不要你们担心。
我会好好的过自己的生活。

累了，晚安。 =）

maybe its really time to let go.....if luv is such a pain....

I'm so sorry, soonly u will find a gal who really appreciate ur love..I'm not a good girlfren.
I'm so sorry.

so coincidentally Makoto was telling me dat he is going to KL tomorrow to visit his relative,
so we have decided to go KL together. Huh~!
okie, better than no one accompany me =)

我突然很还怕寂寞。

okie, decided to go back KL on friday to visit ahgong.
Yapsiewkuan, 不准哭k!

Jiayou!haha!

huh~
went for FO training & hotel induction this few days..er,VERY BORING! I like concierge more than others! haha..so many things to know & to learn =)
Ppls in PPS..erm, no comment..ha! But at least trainer Makoto is good enough..He has already approved all my CNY shift requests & leaves on my 1st day training! huhu~!

I hate ppl keep asking me about my hotel background & history! Cox i wanna be FRESH ENTRY from now k!

谢谢弟弟的黑色幽默，有让我会心一笑。
谢谢妹妹的简讯，不要担心我，不要哭，姐姐真的还好。

还有谢谢你们，我会好好照顾自己。

阿公，对不起。

阿公因不小心跌倒，弄伤了头部，进了手术室。
我现在该怎么办？

想要回去看他。。

Okie, for Feli's benefit, I will try my best to blogging in English ya..but juz 4 tonight only..haha!
Finally I've moved in into my new room today..Juz finished to tidy up my room n I know it's already very late now. haha! Insisted!

Thanks to Rene for everything, thanks Rene's papa for helping me carried luggage today & his concerns as well, thanks Rene's mama for making me coffee everyday, thanks to wujianhao for everything that he did today (spring cleaned my room, carried many many things..& etc) n thanks Jieying for take over all tasks from wujianhao.

my 2nd auntie juz called me & asking if i would have time to makan reunion dinner with her on CNY Eve and Rene's papa was asking me d same thing this morning.. Oh no, so now how? I should ask Rene to talk to my auntie personally Or I' should have Marathon reunion dinner on dat day ..?haha..

Once again, MANY MANY THANKS TO EVERYONE YA!^^
我是幸福的。=）