have a short chat with dad few days ago..he told me that he got lost in the mountain 2 hours plus & that time was about 9pm plus already.. he felt nervous cox he met some "dirty things.." & he couldn't find the way out at all...he scolded those "dirty things" but at the same time he apologized to them also...

when d time he told me this story, i felt my self so useless..i feel like i can't support them & taking care of them that much..i do not have enough time to keep them accompany..always. I wish too, but i do not have much time. Keep imagine how good if i was there with my dad when that thing happened..?so that he won't feel nervous ...

Yesterday,I managed to have time to went to coffee shop with dad & his frens at night ..i was just sitting beside him and i did not talk so much cox i was too tired.. just kept looking at his face, listening to him chit chatting with his frens..that's enough to him i think..as long as i sit beside him, he will be happy.

KherShin jux called me & said that there is nothing different that if i stay in Singapore or Malaysia..cox I'm always busy & did not have time to meet up with them also... I'm so sorry my dear frens...

God..how good if I have 48hours per day..?

After worked for two days mid shift..jux wanna said..i was so free!!!!!
Free until i kept telling my staffs lame jokes...haha...!! and..i finished all the preparation works for them before they in-shift..haha! They feeling tired & bored also when the hotel occupancy is very low...

Now my dad control me too much..until i cannot tahan already..hahaha!!!!

okay, got to work morning shift tomorrow..goodnight Alicia =)

Happy Birthday to Jieying

woohoo~! happy birthday to u, my dear JieYing!!!
hahaha...not sure the present already deliver to her or not..haha!
Hope she like the present la... =) another surprise for her!! muakz!

To help..? or jux to serve..?

I realized one thing today..be a hotelier, we always helping ppl..the different is, we are helping them in sincere way or help them because of "job"...But as wat i know..ppls who are working in hotel line, most of them are helping guest just because of a reason..."I am a hotelier, I have to provide service..no choice"..haha!

I checked-in into many hotel before & i can feel either the staff serve me sincerely or not..(ha, most of them can get "Oscar Awards" le..) That's make me feel VERY BAD!! I always reminding myself that i want to HELP ppl instead of to serve ppl.... cox I believe ppl can feel either u are helping them sincerely o not...really...=)I am happy that I'm doing it...every time when i managed to solved the problem for guests, i can feel that they are very happy with me..
So..I GOT a lot a foods from guests & tourguide today!! haha.. Welldone Alicia =)

Not only for job..To ppls that i love..frens, family & my dear..i can sacrifices everything for them...as long as they happy. 我还是相信， 只要你对别人好， 别人也一样会对你好。。就算吃亏也无所谓，因为老天在看着。。。虽然累了，老天还是会给我很多力量。。=）

我现在过得很好。。真的！
谢谢你们的关心,我很爱你们 (^-^)。。也很想念你们。。
那。。你们还会想念我吗。。？

原点。

有时候觉得很感慨。。
拼了命的这几年，学到了很多东西。。
以前,有个目标, 就是钱..因为家人所以拼了!...可是最近才发现, 原来我已经宠坏他们了...包括爸爸..
也突然发现, 因为他们..自己累了...
我每次都安慰自己..只要他们快乐就好.. 可是,我还能撑多久呢..?

大家都说我很勇敢,因为总是一个人到处去闯..哈! 听到别人这样说,只能傻笑, 因为我完全不觉得那是很伟大的事, 那只是"当你没钱和走投无路时,就完全没有选择!"..无奈..哈!

人..或许,
最害怕的是"没有目标"吧...?
我就是那其中一"人"...

以前很有目标的我..在外拼了多年,得到的一切,现在终究归零..
回到了以前让我一直很想逃的家,重拾那样的负担..我没办法了,
还是回到了原点..

Woohoo~! Finally i'm off today!

woke up @ 0630hrs to accompanied ahgong makan,
who knows when i reached that place he told me "sorry har..he forgot he got date with me already, so that he finished makan his food le... then i asked him to accompany me makan breakfast la since i was there already..he told me to makan alone la.. really @#$%^&*!! then i got to makan alone..-_-!!!

Already date with bonnie sis & my AFOM today @ 1400hrs at Mid-Valley..but,
I fang fei ji again!!!! Jux msg them that i dun wanna go already cox i'm very lazy! haha! see i'm so honest leh...

Wat am i going to do today leh? wash my cloths, clear my stuff, clean my room, facial, plug my armpit hair (haha), watch drama, online, i wanna msn with my sing frens today! haha!

Wah..sometimes i really enjoy to be a "Zai nu" o! hehe...
Stay cheerful Ms Yap, stay happy everyone!

I have one senior colleague Lok told me that he dun like current alicia...
cox alicia now become so matured, no longer like last time..cute & super active! haha...Ofcox la... now different le la..i forced to be matured de..haha!

I dun like current Alicia too..haha..no more cheerful..(i hope it's juz temporary ba!)ha.. never smile to anyone at home including my ahgong at all since i started work till now...jux only hi & bye..cox i was too tired already...i hate myself so much!!!!

The reason why i being so tired is becox of i got used to stay alone for almost 5-6years already. Last time when stayed in Sing alone, i dun have to care about others..like family & bf etc..I got my own time to do so many things...But now totally different, I have to take care of my grandpa..think he is getting older & very hard to taking care of him le. He is very stubborn, was asking him to dun cycling when raining, but he never listen to me. Asked him to dun nag my brothers & sis too much, still he never stop nagging. I wanted to bring him for kopi but he told me to save money.. Not only grandpa, my brothers & sis also, keep calling me to buy them food, fetch them to school & fetch them back to home after school..etc..My dad is alaso keep calling me to help him this & that.. I told him that my salary now lesser then last time, asked him to give me discount for d 家用。。but he said NO! I told him i better do part-time "Chick" to feed him la!!!! hump! My boyfren also, fully pre-book my time.. OMG lo.. See..I dun have my own time at all..

Burden, stress, job...all caused me become matured..i dun like it actually.

Haha..but Alicia, u had no choice! 任命吧！！haha...
But I know, 我是幸福的！因为他们都很疼爱一直为他们付出的Alicia..

Jiayou Yap Siew Kuan =)

有人告诉我.."好马不吃回头草.."
我告诉他, 我经常都吃回头草...哈哈!!!
回去同样的男朋友的身边,回去同样的酒店..对我来说,
吃回头草并不羞耻...吃回头草, 我才能发觉自几成长了多少...改变了多少..

回到男朋友身边我并不后悔,因为我们都长大了, 都改变了...所以,我们都幸福, 因为我们惜福...
回到同一个酒店, 得到的是"赞美" 与"信任"... 大家都说我变的很成熟稳重了,不象以前那样刁难孩子气了..哈哈!

同样一个男朋友,同样的酒店..都曾经带给我很大很大的伤害....也跌得很伤。。
如果他们从未抛弃我,我现在应该很刁难,很大小姐吧?
我是真的“从哪里跌倒，就从哪里爬起来”哦！！！！哈哈。。。

吴健豪,恭喜你找到了自己的方向..要珍惜现在知道吗？
而我一向来方向感都不好。。所以看不到自己的方向。。哈！

Don't be too worried my dear Sing's frens...
I'm doing quite good in my current hotel..All ppls here treating me nicely..真的！
Juz that i still feeling "Singapore's homesick" heavily....haha! It's true!

Anyway,
Thanks 4 all ur concerns...
I believed, I will be fine de!

I'm very weak now..ha!

Attended to d Management Support Program course today...haha! Quite interesting but still i felt so sleepy...haha!

I hate traffic jam..i woke up today at 645am & drove out by 0730am, den reached hotel by 0845am..if no traffic, it will take 20mins to reach hotel...can imagine how "sien" & how sleepy when driving.. sop sop..i really hate this!!! T_T

Received a call from dad yesterday & told me that he felt heart pain when every time saw me lie on sofa after reached home & asking why am i still sick...haha! i told him no choice ar, i'm very tired with d traffic & i haven fit to d working enviroment, so that's y i'm stil sick & feel so moody..ha!

Jia you Jia you Yap SiewKuan..
you will get well soon..haha!

Congratulation My dear Bonnie sis..

Finally! She married le!!!! hhaaaha...i feel so touching & sweet yesterday..

Few years ago..she cried ..she heartbroken..she fedup with guys..But ends..

Life still move on..Haha!

This Bride always like to act CUTE! More Jialat then me...haha!

Me & Joyce ^_^ huhuh~! This is our "day dress" & "night dress" look..haha!
I'm so happy to met her..we yield together on ppl's wedding dinner..we crazy together for 4days 3nights..! we took bus together all d way from KL to malacca to helped up bonnie sis for her wedding stuffs..we slept together..& ofcox, we argued & fight with each other oso! haha! as usual..
Jux sent her off to KL Central to take her flight to going back to Singapore..She is alone, and I'm back to alone again...

突然好想你

给： 香香家族

想念如果会有声音，不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今，终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你，你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你，突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲，变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你，带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品。。。

我们那麽甜 那麽美
那麽相信
那麽疯 那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们
还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去


From: MayDay 阿信

HappyBdae my dear JessyBeh!
I'm glad that u said “很开心以后可以每天看到我了！”哈哈。。。
see, i am so important to everyone! haha..not shy..!

We went to LunaBar last night..haha! It's a open air pool bar..!
Managed to see the full KL view o! nice nice! =D
Hoho..i never drunk..but kept pangsai-ing..haha!

Nice pic that i took..haha..-KL Tower!



Huhu..yesterday managed to chat Msn with Rene,Jun, Jilick & jia jia all in one time...haha..so happy, they going to watch movie today..sop sop..i hope i can follow too..=(

Farewell photos...

Jerrick always not in a group photo....-_-!

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Dear Frens...

Give me sometime update all the photos k...

hahhaha...i wanna kill myself le la! Very tired!

Penang Trip

WooHOO~! I jux came back from Penang! Finally..Haha!

It was a very nice trip..Although, i was so tiring..
So tired to miss Singapore so much, not feeling well & Blah~blah!hahah
But Still... I have already tried my best to enjoy every moment at Penang..

Penang Foods all very nice & cheap!!!! hahaha..i did not eat much but i tasted all..!
huh~! My favourite Asam Laksa not spicy at all, y har? hoho..i think my tongue got problem ba..haha!

1st day trip..see my face, i was so tired tired cox straight went to Penang early morning after reached KL from sing...i met my ahgong finally!
We went to the short trip & i found out there's a "YAP TEMPLE" at Penang..haha!funny right?The aunty said this "yap temple" build up b4 1900..har? so long time duh~
hoho, my room direct facing the sea view, how nice ho Irene Chng!
I have tried my best to "SMILE" in every photo..haha!

2nd day..took a very nice pic b4 leaving from the hotel..
Went to Gek lok Si & Met my Guan Yin Ma there..hahah! Make me think of the "Guan Yi Ma okay joke.."haha..
Stand On top of the Gek Lok Si mountain, can see the full Penang View o..nice!
This old old Ahgong cannot walk very well..so we paid for the taxi went up to the mountain! huhu!~Save my ENERGY...Haha!

Departing!!!!!! Huhu~! so happy, finnally can go home le!
Elizabeth u see, all a long i used the bag that u gave me o!!! hahah..sweet mah?
My last day at Penang quite happening actually...hahha!

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在离开槟城之前， 老爸带我上山问神，
因为第一次，所以很害怕。。哈哈！
神说，我人很好，骂人也哭，被骂也哭，就连看戏也会哭。。每一次不开心就会躲着哭。。
娃哈哈。。（哪有？）。。有啦，一点点啦。。因为最近我也一点点地哭了好几天。。哈哈！

神说，我的心很乱。。真个过程都会听到神说，我这个很乱，我那个很乱。。哈哈！
我很想哭，因为很怕！可是当神说我爱哭，我就死都不哭！哈哈！倔强就是我的本领!!!

哦!那个神是"笑神"噢!我还哭得出来吗? 哈哈!

因为上下山..把自己弄个半死, 呕吐头昏全都来..哈哈!