EDITED BY JESSY BEH.

wow dear..very nice leh! I like it so much..thanks dear^^

Papa has given me a very tough assignment juz now...
To bring all my bros & sis go for shopping & buy new year cloth.
I was like.."excuse me..FIVE OF THEM leh...I'm patient u know..#$%^&*()!!!!! "haha..
haiyo..Juz think of it ady feel tiring liao. haha!

It's okie, i can make it de!

start busy liao, packing..shopping...preparing n blah blah blah..
better den nothing to do =) hehe...

Why..?

why I can't sleep well...?
why I'm stuck..?
why I'm Jobless...?

n..why It's still painful...? Urgh...

Die.

倒帶.

我受夠了等待你所謂的安排　說的未來到底多久才來
總是要來不及 才知道我可愛　我想依賴而你卻都不在
應該開心的地帶　你給的全是空白　
一個人假日發呆　找不到人陪我看海
我在幸福的門外　卻一直都進不來　
你累積給的傷害　我是真的很難釋懷

終於看開愛回不來　而你總是太晚明白　
最後才把話說開　哭著求我留下來
終於看開愛回不來　我們面前太多阻礙　
你的手卻放不開　寧願沒出息求我別離開

你總是要我乖 慢慢計劃將來　我的眼淚卻一直掉下來
過去怎麼交代你該給的信賴　被你親手緩緩推入懸崖

從我臉上的蒼白　看到記憶慢下來　
過去甜蜜在倒帶　只是感覺已經不在
而我對你的期待　被你一次次摔壞　
已經碎成太多塊　要怎麼拼湊跟重來?

* I finally realized that love cannot return..and u are always understanding too late =(

Papa drunk liao :P hahaha..

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Juz had a dinner & drinks with KherShin & Jessy @ Desa Park City..
We had a very long lady's talk tonight..3 of us are quite EMO.. haha!
I think some of the point Kher Shin misunderstood me liao..So Kher Shin, i've purposely found this(attached below) & highlighted d mainpoint for u to know me well as a GEMINI BABY.. next time I definately dun wan my kid to be GEMINI BABY liao!!!! haha^^

双子最大的悲哀在于有两个人的思想，却只有一个人的身体，双子有爱自己所爱的人的权利，也有保护彼此所爱的人的义务，双子只剩下一个时，爱也就只剩下义务了。其实双子是最平和的星座，如果可以不发生冲突，都会尽量避免. 双子也很少跟别人吵架，他讨厌吵架，如果是因为一些生活琐碎小事吵架，那么双子就在吵完的那一刻就把这件事给忘了. (This is d reason y u all never see us quarral in front but it doesn't mean dat we are totally fine..)

很大一部分双子，对待感情是非常专一的，之所以给人留下花心的美名，是因为很少有人能够让略带童心的双子动真感情，不是双子铁石心肠，而是双子个性里面天生有一些忧郁，一些潜在的不自信，只是双子隐藏的深入. 可是一旦让双子动了真感情，那么恭喜你了，双子的天真，率直，外加表达能力丰富，一定能让你获得很多快乐。(So i'm quite protective & defensive cox i do not have confidence at all)

每个双子都有一个故事隐藏在心里，多数是不堪回首的往事. 双子是个念旧或者说是喜欢沉浸在回忆中的星座，他（她）的这个故事通常都是因情所困，动了感情而被伤害了的双子是脆弱的，也是坚强的，他（她）可以很快的振作起来，可以当什么事都没有发生，这些都是双子演给世人看的罢了，等到夜深人静的时候，双子内心的伤痛随着血液渗透到全身，他（她）可以一整夜的去回忆之前的点点滴滴，可以一整夜的沉浸在痛苦之中，可以一整夜坐在那里发呆，但是，一旦天亮了，要出去见人了，双子马上就从痛苦中抽身而走，你看到的肯定是一个神采奕奕的双子，这就是双子，拥有双重性格的双子，一个在世人面前乐天，快乐，在孤独夜晚独自伤悲的双子。 (About d past, i already forgave..but doesn't mean that i can forget it. )

双子的爱是最永恒的，可以付出一切，有人说我们花心，那时我们没有真正的爱，当双子爱上一个人的时候是痛苦的，因为我们太敏感。假如双子爱上了一个不爱自己的人，那莫我相信他永远都不会再爱了，当爱给过了一个人，他再也没有能力再付出了，其实太多的人都不懂我们，其实连我们自己都不懂自己，我们很会伪装，很会说谎. 但我们最细腻，对感情最敏感，双子的爱与悲伤，谁又真的了解！ (I'm not blaming u all, cox I also dunno myself well.)


P/S : I'M NOT A GOOD ACTRESS, JUZ THAT I USED TO HIDING MY REAL FEELING COX I RATHER THAT I HURT MYSELF IN ORDER THAT I HURT ANYONE OF U /THEM.

I've realized that not many frens know me well..as in very well...it's all my fault i think..haha^^ Anyway, after tonight, tomorow i still will "HAHAHAHHA" thru out the whole day de!!!!

I miss my singapore's frens...huhu...

Had a very nice night with Nat, Elizabeth, Sherlene, Rebecca & Rebecca's mama in one u yesterday..even though I extremely tired le but luckily i still got spare battery..huhu..

As usual, me, Nat & Elizabeth extremely hyper active & lame-ing non stop..
It's really fun in KTV room..someone kena sing like hell & non-stop..haha!
I feel happy that they likes m'sia KTV room so much..haha!

Yeah^^

Going to miss them so much..

p/s..oh,I really love my brother so much..so touching sia..muakz!!!!

Happy New Year!! ^^

Yeah~ i'm almost recover le! haha..
It's really a good start to me..huhu~!
I should start to find a new job again^^hehe..

and..welcome to m'sia wujianhao & Elizabeth..^^
Going to meet up with them tomorow...haha!

Okie rest well alicia^^