i got a little bit crazy..

Yesterday went out with nat and complained to him dat im very stressed with my work, family & frens..same goes to jerrick..(think their eyes got burn already jux bcox of e explosion from me..hhaa,,)..

but wen i woke up dis morning, dunno y suddenly i feel so fresh & energytic & like "i can challenge everything.." haha! I think i got a bit crazy cox my mood changed too fast already! or maybe..i'm really a happy go lucky gal..?

To my dear colleagues..i'm so sorry for showing face yesterday cox i'm really sick & my heart thinking was "i dun wan to stay here (working place) so long..can pls stop calling me..?" hahaa..

I'm so sorry to joyce, cox i really mad at her dat day cox dunno y recently she bcome so defensive...til she cried in front of me, den i realized that she is really really extremely tired to work with MMS already, and she left so far from home..i really can understand how she feels..

I'm so sorry with Ms Jo, eventhou i dunno y recently i always kena shooted by her,,maybe i'm really a disqualified AM (anyway, that's how i feel myself)..i'm so sorry to my own stupid mistake..really hope that she can nag lesser..hahah..but it's good for me oso, cox dis few days i have learned "ask less den kena shoot lesser, can't ask more den find ur own solution"..ahaha...i have learned from my mistake & learned to be independent at work! Anyway, i still hope that i can help Ms Jo to brighten up the FO counter as wat Nat said before..ha!

Everyone got their own difficulty..i hope i can be more understanding to each & everyone..i'm still learning...ha!

To MMS : MY DAD NOT ALLOW ME TO GO BACK KL, so i still will stick with u longer!hahaa..

Oh GOD..tomorow dep 417, arrival 209! again..alicia alicia alicia..

BlurqueenAlicia

i am a human oso

how good if we can do things as wat we wants & dun have to care about others..ha!
...

ppl will only appreciate if u spending your whole life on them..but once u done a mistake, they will never giv face to u oso..that's called human being..i know.

ppl will keep approaching u wen u stil have "value", but they will jux ignoring u if u got no"value" anymore. that's called human being oso..i know.

bad ppl will survive longer den good ppl, cox they know how to hurts ppl & pull out all the sh@t to cover themself...that's called human being oso..i know.

we hate ppl being "2 face", but we still feel very happy wen ppl treat us very well infront even we knew that they back step us behind..tHat's called human lo..i know.

I'm human oso..but y i still have to care about others..? Sometimes, i really feel disappointed with those "human being" ha!

"no matther how, GOD know everythings, GOD will never disappointed u..trust me..haha!
Blurqueen..

F1...Non Of My business lo.#@!!

ha! very happy to met JOn yesterday..! almost 3years never see him ady! so excitind & funny..we've been talking about our "10years" stories..it was very funny..hahaha...
Stupid Jon keep telling ppl dat "siew kuan last time was very very MAN de!" hahaa..
Yar right! i'm very man de! hahhaa...

Oh i forced sick le..i told jerrick "im over stressed til sick bcox of the F1..."hahaaa...
Hope can take MC but i know better dun, cox sure will kena ppl kill me de..hahhaa..so no choice, i still will turn up for work tomorow..hahha.. No worries..I'M VERY MAN de!

I feel fainted ady after the medicine..ha!
Blurqueen..

mui really dunno wat's going on..
my life is so boring now..

wish to go back KL ady..hahhaa...

Hahaa..Singapore is a very nice country, but i think it's not suit for me to stay here..!
Ppl here too smart & clever..i feel myself jux like a stupid sotong,,no confidence at all..haizz..


WheN everytime i went back KL, everyone there tot dat "i'm must be very good life in sing here.."how sad if sometimes kena some S ppls teasing me somemore..haizz..
but how do they know how hard to stay alone in sing here..? they will never know..
Work hard for daddy, save more money jux to helping daddy..? How about myself..? i really dunno..and..i really feel sad dat daddy always can't show his LOVE to me whenever SOMEONE is there..oh how SAD u know..?
i always think of family.."oh as long as they happy, i can spend my everything to them..!"but..do they think of me oso..?i really feel very very very tired le..i feel like i can't help them much..so useless..!!!!

Oh GOD!!!! how good if u can giv me some hintz now..


Hhaha..anyway, im still fine la!
Blurqueen

My daddy can sing very well o...but y I can't de..?
Hhaha.....

walao A..~very busy week..

i was soooooo busy dis few day cox last minute decided to go back KL few days ago & rushed back to sing here to work afternoon shift den d next day back to back to work morning shift..den hotel running high occupancy again.."alicia..how ar? no room..!" alicia..how ar..gst is very angry..!"alicia..alicia..alicia..honestly i feel phobia with ppl keep calling "aliciA..alicia..alicia.."!! very high due out again during dis few days..today was 200plus, tomorow oso 200plus...on 29th more "jialat"..300plus!!!!!OMG...!!



Really feel stress @ work already..tot can go home faster t0 rest early yesterday after work, suddenly received msg from joyce to said that my owner wanna complain to me again about one of my roommate!!! OH really sh@T u know??? i was very very very mad & tired with my roommate! i really dunno wat to ady..i even asked Jess can i dun go home & stay at hotel?! hahah!!! after i reached home, i was running very very fast to my room & run out again to getting shower den run back to room & locked my door, never giv aunty chance to talk to me! hahahaa!!! ..nowaday must pray 1st wen everytime wanna go out from room..haha!!!



THEN, received a msg from kl fren to asked me either can help to find a room for him o not..another task again..ofcox i willing to help..

and THEN..i was keep calling one of the st3P#d mobile shop to help another fren to claim back his phone..very very su#k service, said will return call but never/! so dat's y i have to keep calling them!!! ...really very very bad feeling..i think im too soft with everything ady..



I've found out something dis few days "IF u be good to ppl, ppl will never appreciate and they will jux take it as granted and they can even overide on u!!!.."Should i learn from Joyce, always said"WAT?!"with very high volume wen ppl asking her something about work, den ppl feel scared & will not ask her question anymore..hahha!



Anyway, i still prefered to be a nice & "soft" person, if not it will be very hard for me to move if im not a "soft" person...cox it's too HARD ady, cannot move at all!!!hahaha..not funny i know..^_^



..BlurQueen..
HaPiHaPYhapPPPY..

forgive but NOT forget...

im quite forgetful sometimes...but there is always some "hurts" dat i will never forget, i'm trying to release it, but it's still there always in my heart..



i wanna to tell a person dat i know her almost 20years..
i've spent a lot a lot a lot of LOVE to her before, but, that was 5years ago..
5YEARS ago, i realized that she never appreciate with wat i have done for her, i gave up.. i run away from home & her life...i keep telling myself dat i can survive without anyone.. In this fiveYears, i've learned to be independent, be TOUGH.. and now, she is getting older..everyone always asking me to forgive her..i did!!! i forgave her already, but it doesn't mean dat i can release it!!
for "HER", I've already forgive u earlier on, jux dat i dunno how to approach u..Cox, i scared i will getting hurt from u again..


i wanna to tell a person dat i dunno her at all, but without her, i won't be in this world..
im so sorry to said, i really dunno u at all.. u are only appeared in my imagination... If frens never ask, i dun feel like "U ARE SUPPPOSE to be in MY LIFE.."
wen i was in primary school, i always imagined "how good if u are next to me, eventhou i never seen u.." ...but i know it jux a imagination...
and now, u getting older...u wish to come back to me, but i'm really sorry dat i have rejected u a while ago..my childhood life was so hard, i'm trying to release the hurts, but confirm i will never forget..

P/S: i got one critical problem now, can anyone tell me if i getting married oneday, how do i arrange the seat for both of them on my wedding dinner ar..?!and i should call them as wat ar??hahahhahaaa...i always thinking about this..hahaha!!!

To both of u, i'm so sorry to said if one day both of u leaving before me(touchwood), I WILL NOT CRY at all...cox..our relationship is more like a STRANGER, not even fren..and if i leaving before u, pls remember that i've already forgave both of u, but i will never ever forget..


DunWorry MyDear Fren,
This is jus a story from a BlurQueen
I'm still HaPpy go lucky